Lose Yourself to Find Yourself

              Lose Yourself – To Find Yourself – Emily Turano – Putting it all Together

In Matt. 16: 24-25 Jesus teaches that if we lost our lives then we will actually find our lives. We find our lives as we follow Jesus instructions to lose our lives because when we give up the things that we may want to spend our time on , rather than seeking first the kingdom of God, we risk not having eternal life.

I have had very personal experiences in which I was prompted to let go of my worries, my desires in life and just follow the promptings of the spirit, trust in the Lord and seek solely to do His will. As I did this I was healed from all of my anxieties, and eventually was blessed beyond measure to find the most joy in life than I could have ever imagined had I not done this.

Awaking at night with racing heart, and chest pain could be proof that one is due for a doctor appointment?  Pain and discomfort seem unlikely symptoms to change one’s life for good? Yet, finding myself in panic at night, and uncontrollable nervousness throughout the day, was one of the best experiences of my life.               

 Becoming aware of my inability to control serious life situations, took over my life for a time. The body has a magnificent way of manifesting deeply en rooted emotions to the conscious mind, through physical reactions. This was the cause of my sudden anxiety disorder emerging. This was also the beginning of a new found truth that I would soon discover.  The truth that” if we lose ourselves, we shall find ourselves”, is something that I have learned from having an anxiety disorder.              

  I was prompted to walk into a random door, as I was going to the doctor, in order to determine why I had this sudden onset of discomfort? Upon being told by the receptionist that the office that I had entered was the enrollment center to become a Certified Nurse’s Assistant, I immediately enrolled.            

  Although I could barely function in my own life at the time, I followed the prompting that  I  had to “lose myself “and begin a journey to take care of others. After my schooling, as I began caring for extremely ill patients in the hospital, my symptoms of a racing heart, and extreme nervousness suddenly seemed like a blessing. I was suddenly thankful that I was only experiencing anxiety, and that I was not dealing with deadly illness, as many of my patients were.            

  After about six-months of working in a hospital, and caring for very ill patients, I suddenly didn’t care that I was waking up at night with a racing heart, or that I was often very nervous during the day; I was just glad to be alive. This I believe; when you lose yourself, you shall find yourself. (Luke 17:33)